Touch
I was walking with my hands in my jacket pockets; zipped up to the chin, tired, eyes sore, one step after the other, one step, one step more.
Blue grey trees are my only company, until I hear someone behind me.
I stop but don’t look back, hear the footsteps grow closer, feel the air grow clearer; the wind which was blowing against my face changes direction and becomes a breeze, coming from the one who steps ever so lightly.
‘Hello’, she says with a smile which I return. ‘It’s at the end of a long day that you learn, you learn…’ and she stops there, waiting for me to complete the sentence. “..you learn. One always learns” is the best I can come up with. I get a smile in return.
I just want to talk and so I do: “I don’t know you, and I don’t know if you’re willing to listen, but I’m tired; tired of what I’ve been doing. My friends are far away, I pushed away someone who was a part of me, who I loved..”
‘Stop.’, she said. ‘I know, and I know what you feel. A full moon, the color of the waves of a lake as they lap against the shore, a beautiful melody, the softness of a fresh rose petal, a drop of dew, the vast expanse of a desert colored by the setting sun; there is beauty all around you, and never forget, the beauty within.’
I close my eyes, and when I open them, she is still there, standing with me. A light breeze blows and the leaves of the blue grey trees rustle gently.
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She looked backwards over her shoulder.
Memories come back/creeping like a host of assasins in the dark/
one by one they assail her/but that’s all they are/memories
A flash of movement behind.
Clawing/cutting/they dug their nails into her/fetid breath/stale/moist/
dampness seeping through the walls/her back against moss and slime/
Keen sniffs sound in the dark.
Tongues rough and long/scraped her face/wet/foul/excited nibbles/
guttural commands pulled back the eager ones/she was to be kept to fester
Looking down, she sees the ground far below. The sun lies low over the plains that roll undulating from the base of the mountain. Fresh air. She had taken long to crawl and pick her way towards the source of sweeter air. Hours, days spent in the dark with only a faint smell to go on. She was out now. Finally.
They dare not creep closer, for even the soft warm tones of sunset hurt their eyes. Yet some cannot hold back. She was a rarity, delicious to their tongues, immensely sensual to their rough touch. They inched closer, but had to withdraw. The light. It hurt them more than anything could. She had no where to go. It was either them or the sharp drop that meant death. They would wait.
The warmth of the sun on a summer morning/the rush from a kiss/how her parched throat welcomed cool water when she was thirsty/the sense of power she felt at times/this was what she thought
as she stepped off the edge.